guys. seriously i just suffered a minor nervous breakdown of uncontrollable tears, and i will tell you why and hope that you will all understand and not judge me or think i am crazier than you know i am. so you know how you have those weeks where nothing goes right. where you are like "seriously is life ever going to get better?" these are my feelings as of late and i was so excited about the premiers tonight and i had put all my hope into this one 5 hours session of telelviosn watching. Tv is what calms me . i get lost in teh shows and i forget what sucks in my own life and i was so looking forward to that today.
7:50 - start warming up my dinner and getting excited. put on pijamas. find a comfortable spot on couch
7:56 - cable goes out. i try to remain calm adn fiddle with cables. switch to aux tivo channel and realize it's all the cable not just the cable to our tv. internet also goes out. i begin to get stressed
8:03 - finally get a hold of a comcast rep, realize that i'm missing 3 minutes of dancing wtih teh stars and chuck. start to feel lots of eeeemotions.
8:05 - tell the gay operator, valentino that i really need him to fix this for me because i serioulsy might cry and i cannot have this not work. he tells me "oh honey i will try."
8:35 - after much fiddling he breaks it to me that the cable is out and i will have to wait until wednesday to get a worker to come and fix it. i begin to tear up on the real. the ridiuclousness of htis moment (me being comforted by a queen named valentino because i'm missing teh bachelor) is not lost on me.
i quickly rush out of teh house so as not to let my housemates see me cry over tv because seriously no one will understand. do you all undersatnd? i drive to my friends house and it's liek the flood gates open and everything i have been feeling of late is let out and i just can't stop crying and i am saying to myself "why are you crying??" i get to her house and she is watchign dancing with teh stars but after 10 minutes i realize i am in such a bad mood that even if i were to stay and watch heroes my heart wouldn' be in it. To dvr and tivo owners, you shoudl be able to understand that the though of having to watch live tv at a time when you dont' want to watch it is nausea inducing. i concur that i am a drama queen but i also cannot stop crying. so i get in my car and drive home. i get home and my roommates are all around teh kitchen in silence and they say "sorry tina." i don't watn them to see me cry so i just tell them that i cant' talk to anyone right now and i go into my room, grab my comp, and head to teh coffee shop where i cry and type in front of complete strangers. Seriously what is wrong with me!!
so my point is that...i don't know what my point is. i'm really upset and frustrated. yes i can watch most of these shows online but this is not teh point. i just needed it to not suck today. as i told orges, i'm sure that on thursday when i am drunk i will retell this story about how i cried to a fag named valentino on the phone. and it will go in my repertoir of stories entitled "how my life is like a sitcom."
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