so a week into grad skeeewwl and i can tell you guy now my observations. i'm starting to see a patern. While these peopel are very fun i have come to the realization that the reason that thye all drink so much is that they are all moderatly depressed. I mean imagine that you are loving your life on a "i am passionate and care about what i'm doing" kind of level, but you have no material belongings worth anything, you have no retirement plan, you have no one to share your life with, and to top it off you can't even have a one night stand because you are stuck in the small town of ann arbor where grad students make up about 95% of the population and therefore the 5 bars that you frequent you are destined to run into th esame people and therefore the whole "we can bone and i won't see you ever again" thing wont' ever happen. Because the reality is that as awesome it is to be helping people and doing something good for humanit in the end as fernando put it "sometimes you just wnat to stay home, watch a movie with someone, and then bone." And it's true. so i'm finding that sometimes people just drnk to have something to do so taht they dont' end up sitting alone in their basement apartment watching reruns of dawsons creek. i don't know waht the point of this is. i guess it's to say that if i'm 29 and have no marriage prospects or no one to at least watch a movie and bone with i might turn to severe alcoholism. these are things that really run through my head on a regular basis. and honestly honestly this is a hard life, academia. i don't know, i guess i'm just hoping that someday it will all pay off and i will feel like my life was worth something and that i somehow helped someone...ok i'm drunk and getting a bit too emo for the blogger.