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Saturday, June 21, 2008

guys!!!  where have i been???  I know for reals, i ask the same thing.  Well i have been all over europe and stuff and getting my phd and stuff and i haven't been having as many moments as you know i usually have so i haven't felt the need to write.  but just right now i had a moment and i wanted to share it.

So i submitted my masters project idea as a poster for a conferences and it was accepted.  this is my first step to becoming a super star.  yes it's true, someday i will work at an ivy and my shit will matter.  this is the plan anyways.  So yeah i did this not because i think it's a particularly interesting project but rather i just needed some pressure to force myself to finish it and i figured having to present it next week would put that pressure on me.  So i'm putting my poster together and my friend sent me a template.  And the reason i had a moment was that i started plugging in the title of my project and my name and right under it it says "psychology department, university of michigan ann arbor" and it has a picture of the u of m seal and i was like...holy shit that is me!  my name is on some printed thing that people i respect will see!  and that symbol is right next to my name and it will be next to my name forever.  and i don't know, it was just kind of like...wow.  I guess it was just kind of the first time i thought about where i am.  

also i have been super stressed all week and after 6 hours of doing statistical coding yesterday i totally got home to my room and considered crying in my bed but instead chose to put on my whitney houston record and fist pump jump around to "i wanna dance with somebody."  And you know what?  it totally made me feel better.  and i thought that i would have to have a solo dance party regularly to let out the stress.  

that's kind of it for now.  but i promise i'm back.  

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

BEST PROM EVER!!

So i have now been 26 for about a week and i'll have to say it's kind of strange feeling in that it's not all that strange. I feel that in a lot of ways over the past year i have come to terms with lots of things. i'm old...but you know what, i'm ok with that. I've started to realize that my education has afforded me friends all over the country and the world even. More importantly these are friends that i can crash with on my many travels. And so what is my goal for this next year? I just kind of plan on really embracing all of the ideas behind "just blazing." I mean really i just want to like kick ass in my programs, get some shit published, write a bunch of grants, learn to play guitar (i know random, but i figure i can't keep waiting around for some poet/liar to sing me songs. i can sing my own damn songs!), travel the world etc etc. I just want to blaze with my life!! and if i meet my soulmate along the way that's cool too but if i don't then that's fine also. Because sometimes i have to remind myself that i have a lot of shit going for me, even if it seems bleak sometimes.

so yes JUST BLAZE, PEOPLE!

So i had my birthday party last week truly was the most ridiculous party i have ever thrown myself. No serioulsy, it was the most fun i have had since New Years Eve 2007, "don't play this song if you don't want me to dance!"

photo documentation is necessary. Basically if this really were high school prom i would be for reals prom queen because as you can see from the the party i am super popular.

aerial shot of amount of people present and cray paper decor
as i said, i'm super popular, guys
homossssexuals always 100% commit to the situation, no matter what
us trying to get the party started by doing the african ant eater ritual from "can't buy me love." look it up, bitchesprom court bitches!! I especially love the french's expression and hand holding skillsclearly drunk at this point. i could easily leave out the pictures where i look ridiculous but really that is teh whole point. we were all crazy drunk and having a blast and the pictures reflect this so here it all is.
miami vice! most of the men went with this option of men's casual wear.
foreign exchange students!! a french and a belgian. sure they didn't dress up but eurotrash is basically 80's so i will allow it to slide
adriana, what a hot hot mess. homegirl committed
Cat, my filipina goddess. Note the glittered woman on the dress
me and run dmc...PS how hot do i look!! either hot or constapated...uncertain
jen/ren
to all those who care, that is FAAD on the left. eerie right?
me andrea and the robot!
me and some hipsters. i don't even think the guy on the left was even dressed up
run dmc!!
awesome 80's dancing. look closer and see hugo's shocked face in teh background
pictures dont lie
we were definitely dancing to some "it's britney bitch"
it is essential that i do this pose at every party
the only filipinos in all of grad school. true story. note the wine coolers, a prop but also had utility
Big O/roomie sangwhich
and the end of the night. note the net in teh background. that was where i rigged teh balloon drop. can you believe we didnt' have pics of teh big drop!! so sad
all in all it was an excellent birthday and a great party. the next morning everyone woke up at 2pm in other people's beds wondering "whaaa happeeeen." doesn't this make you wish you were in grad school just a little bit!

spring is in the air!

spring is here!! guys, spring seriously makes me cry. But it's those kind of tears you get when you get off an an airplane after having been out of the united states for an extended period of time. That is how i feel!!

yesterday i was running in the park with my ipod listening to this american life (read: i am the most overly educated, smug, white liberal that you know) and i saw a family, a mother and her 2 teenage kids, having a picnic on a park bench. Isn't that just lovely!! i just love how people out here will take advantage of a relatively sunny 50 degree day and turn it into an al fresco dining experience. I thought to myself "i want my children to someday appreciate a picnic such as this."

Thursday, March 27, 2008

i amaze me

You know how sometimes in movies and books peopel say they have moments where they amaze themselves and it gives them a sort of renewed sense of spirit? Well that is what i have right now. Guys, i think i have officially topped myself for party decor. Prom is happening tomorrow night, ie my 80's bday party. I have been shopping for decorations and putting shit together all week and basically this is what i have come up with.

My engineer friend came over and we set on building the rubiks cube photo op arch.
This is hugo and i, on our first attempt. We taped the top and it all collapsed. Did i mention that hugo is an electrical engineer, thus highly useless for building things? yeah so after designing a very intricate rope and pulley system hidden within the blocks we made it work and came up with this. I wish you could see the hooks and ropes and shit holding all this shit up. the french came home and i forced him to model what pictures tomorow would look like
i loooooove it!!! And in conclusion, from a few different angles complete

The next feat was to accomplish the task of installing a semi permanent disco ball lighting system. Lots and lots of fishing wire and an ikea spotlight later i got it worked out. alls i have to say is thanks baby jesus for high ceilings! so much more decoration potential! so we have this ridiculously high ceiling, like vaulted. And to reach it we usually have to borrow a ladder from our neighbors. going to their house is always bizarre because they have lots of cats and it's like a real house. It has plants and a pantry full of food and like lots of furniture and throw blankets. and i realized, our house does not really look lived in. It totally looks like we are ready to have a party at any second and need to be able to move furniture in 10 minutes. That is our house. Anyways here is the disco ball

It would look much cooler if you could see the lighting system and what not. But more photos will come tomorrow on the actual night. Now i just have to hang up the glow sticks, cover the doors with foil and built my robot!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, March 24, 2008

shorts

so i know we all have been reading this stuff white people like website and been saying "omg it's totes true!!" or we have been saying "oh man i am so white." etc etc. Well peep this

It really is true that white people are completely ridiculous. The other night we went to our weekly dance bar and we came across these ridiculous whhhhhite people on the dancefloor. Let me give you context. It was 24 degrees outside, icy, and basically cold as balls. Granted i was wearing formal shorts and fishnets but i had a long coat so this somehow excuses me i think from being mocked.

so yes here is the image of waht we saw

crazy whhhhhite man in shorts!!! it is not summer yet!! the shorts where completely inappropriate! Note my arm waving a very angry "no no no" finger at the whole situation
whhhite people, a whole mess of them, dancing to the beat of their own drum. I mean basically that is it but i just wanted to reiterate that

"It is a known fact that white people believe that they can bring spring early by wearing a pair of shorts on any day that is above seasonal temperatures. This myth runs so deep that they will often wear shorts the following day when temperatures drop, at which point they will refuse to recognize that it is cold."

dance on, white boy! may your dancing bring spring!
hey!! i'm alive!! yes, it's been a while and i will explain why. Basically it's been cold as shit and snowing and i don't do anything but sit in my room and occasionally go out and make a fool of myself at the local bar. so really there wasn't all that much that was appropriate to say in an online forum.

And i know that no one likes a complainer but can i just be that person for like 5 minutes here. I think i have earned it. So here are some fun winter pics!!!
cute huh!! you are probably thinking, "wow those must have been taken back in january when it was all blizzardy and shit!" wrong! these were taken 4 days ago. yes it is almost the end of march and we are still having snow storms. Seriously guys, i cannot even explain to you in words my utter disappointment and disillusionment. i can survive most of winter becuase i have the hope of march and tulips in bloom and sun. But now it's been like 2 weeks with no sun and it's really affecting me. I just want to sit around and watch tv and eat ramen and NOT GO OUTSIDE and just do nothing. It's really really truly wretched. There is just something inherently wrong with getting snow storms in march. and now the worst part is that this week we're gonna have light snow and then go straight into the raining season. I just feel like...i feel drained of all of my spirit. I feel like it has left me and i'm hopeless. yes, weather is this powerful. trust me, you don't know until you know and then if you knew you would just know.

So anyways my 26th birthday is coming up. Basically i have like 6 more days before my poor judgment is considered sad instead of being youthful mistakes. After this it's like, any mistakes i make are for real and will affect the way that people view me. So i'm throwing myself a prom party. I was really excited about it for a while but now that it's coming up i just feel like i'm gonna be the only one dressed up and i don't even have a dress yet and i have like drafts of shit due this week and i really honestly don't know how i'm going to do it all.

so here is the vision. The theme is "prom 1982" and the theme of prom is "In the year 2000: the future." So i want to play off of like the way that we imagined the future being. So lots of foil and silver and maybe a cardboard spray painted robot. I mean honestly i don't know how i'm gonna do it because no one wants to help me because they do not see my vision. It's moments like this when i miss college, when people cared about sticking to a theme. Now it's just like, i have the vision and no one to help me bring it to fruition. But anyways i'm imagining i should be pretty awesome assumign i get enough sleep this week and get my shit done.

this is turning whiny. i'm ending it. This was just to say that these are my "winter" pictures that i took the 2nd day of "spring."

Thursday, March 13, 2008

moments of clarity

So I have this tendency of just talking without thinking about what i'm saying first. it's not that I haven't thought about the things that I say because i am in my head all the time, but i just have this tendency to say extremely ridiculous things with no sense of shame whatsoever.

Case in point, Saturday night my roommates "went big." this is what we say we are gonna do on nights when we all really feel the need to dance and pump fists and have just a great free time. So for a whole week before every time I see O on his way to the bathroom he will say "we're going big this weekend! going big!!" i mean our lives are pretty uneventful so the thought of "going big" tends to get us through the week. to top off our going big night i also had a grad school recruit in town. To anyone who has ever done a recruitment thing it's a very emotional time because thye ask you all kinds of questions like "do you like it here" and "what is dating like" and "do you regret going to gad school." I mean basically you have to answer all of the questions that are constantly going through your head 24/7 only now you have to somehow convince someone that this choice you made was a good idea. so needless to say Annette and I were feeling extremely emotional. I was sleeping in Bert's bed because he was not home and i let the recruit sleep in my bed. And somewhere between the shot, finding a VIP room and my 3rd vodka gimlet i found myself in line for the restroom with Annette. Here is what I apparently said (she just reminded me this right now as we were watching tv)

"Annette, we cannot cry tonight. It's your fucking birthday and if you want to cry wait until we get home and cry there with people who know and care about you. And if you want, I'm going to sleep in Bert's bed tonight and you can join me and we can cry together and then we will leave him a note and it will say 'tears were shed here. signed, Cri and Annette'."

I do not remember saying this but as seems to be the case quite often I am not that surprised that these words came out of my mouth. It is just enough melodrama to assure me that i said this. In addition, it is also something that i was feeling. But i find it odd how sometimes you can feel something very strongly and not express it. And then days later realized that in some drunken moment of clarity you actually DID express it and someone else saw your POV and also shared a moment with you.

So what actually happened? you might ask. I did cry sort of on public on a street corner one block from my house. I couldn't even make it that fucking block. isn't that just the shit right there

Taxes and Snow Storms = one in the same

guys, there is nothing like doing your taxes to make you realize how poor you are, and worse insignificant in the grand scheme of things. 95% of the questions do not relate to me. I have no assets, i do not own a house or a hybrid, and i am not eligible for any credits. The only thing i am apparently eligible for is food stamps. My roommate and i contemplated the idea of rolling into whole foods with our $200 government subsidie check and proceeding to buy ridiculous amounts of organic foods. Poor people need hormone free chicken too!! But seriously my dad would die of shame so clearly i won't. I also had to fill out the FAFSA for a grant i am applying to and it asked me how much money i had in my bank account and how much "cash on hand you have." I won't embarrass myself by listing the amount over this here internet production but let's just say it's less than most of your monthly FICA tax.

In other news it's spring, and by spring i mean it's snowing. I seriously don't even remember what not cold felt like. I only know gradiens between freezing and slightly less freezing. I keep tricking myself by wearing lighter jackets and "accidentally" forgetting my gloves. But none of this actually provokes the sun to come out and i just end up with frozen hands. I mean it's mid march! in California we would be like a week away from summer. I was cited as saying in one of my drunken moments of genius "March is like a bad boyfriend. It treats you all sweet and warms up for like a day and then BAM, it just gets all cold on you again as soon as you get used to it. MARCH TELLS LIES!" Now imagine me in some ridiculous outfit trapesing around in the snow screaming this a the top of my lungs, and you will really get the picture.

So yeah, this is just a minor update to say I'm alive, I'm a mess...as always

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

skiing

So there is something you all didn't know and even i didn't' know about myself. I am an AMAZING skier. I have this theory that we are all great at 5 things. We can be good at lots of things but we can really only be great at a finite few. Some people are good at doing free throws. Some people have excellent balance. Some people are good at memorizing state capitols. My big talents are that you can drop me anywhere in any mall in the world and i can find my way around and out. Same goes for mall parking lots and finding my car. I also am amazing with maps because i have an internal compass. Also i can figure out how to work any television remote control after looking at it for 5 minutes or less. finally the last one i have become aware of is my ability to remember mundane details from movies, actors names, characters, and song lyrics. i figure this is all in the same genre of talent so i will just include it as 1 talent.

Well today i went skiing and perhaps i should add to that list, because DAMN i am fucking good! ok i mean i'm not like a professional but seriously for being an out of shape 25 year old who has never done winter sports i feel like i did really well on my first try. My friends kept saying "you are actually good! we can't believe it! we thought you would be awful!" I didnt' take offense because honestly i thought i would suck too. We did 2 runs down the bunny slope and we were like..fuck this let's move to the beginner slopes. And than 3 rides down that one they all agreed that i was ready for the intermediate slopes. So how did thye teach me to ski, you might ask? Basically they said, blaze down that hill and try not to fall. Sure there were 5 year olds zooming past me BUT THAT IS NOT THE POINT!! the point is that i fell like 4 times in a matter of 3 and a half hours of skiing and i mean, I BLAZED! i truly embodied what it means to blaze!!

I would never call myself a sporty person, nor would i call myself someone who does adventurous activities. But for some reason i decided when i moved to michigan i would try to be the me i had never been in california: ie nature loving and what not. It's kind of like how when i went to college i decided that i wasn't going to be a loser anymore/josie grossie. Well so far despite becoming super white, which i feel is inevitable living in the epicenter of whhhiteness, i have also come to appreciate things that i never woudl have loved before. Like leaves falling, and snow on the ground and shit like that.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Step Up 2: THE STREETS!

Guys, it comes as no surprise to those who know me best that I love dance movies. I love them the way that most people love foreign films or Wes Anderson flicks or the Coen Brothers. I mean, I like, love all of things too but my most favorite genre of all is the Dance Movie genre. Girl/boy from the wrong side of town who learns to channel their anger toward something positive and somehow wins in the end via an awesome dance off ending sequence!! It's the American fucking dream! I have mentioned before that I should have been a dancer. Not because I have a particularly good body made for dancing or rhythm or anything like that. But i have concluded that because if i were a dancer i would be able to wear all of those awesome layered thin articles of clothing that dancers wear all the time. I mean there is also the negative side of being a dancer as depicted in Center Stage with all of the bulemia and inability to socialize like normal people because DANCING IS LIFE!! But seriously, dancing equals freedom.

So it is spring break and after a day of exploring Birmingham, Michigan, another town with another Main Street, i decided to take a little bit of time to myself and celebrate this oscar sunday watching a film at the local theater. I could have picked from any quality film showing but i decided to go for a movie that i knew no one else would see with me. A film that if Cathy were with me, we would eat a del taco nachos grande and than sneak into. I saw Step Up 2: The streets.

guys, no lie, i have seen a lot of dance movies in my day and this was by far one of the top 3. I cant' think of what the other 2 on that list would be, but this would definitely be up there. The first 20 minutes or so are a bit slow and you're liek "this girl is not such a great dancer." But then she picks out her new crew of motley dance school kids and the shit gets CRAZY!!! It all culminates, as all dance movies, withe big dance off at the end. And since i'm sure none of you will actually see this movie i won't consider telling oyu what happens spoiling the end. They have this ridiculous dance off, but the brilliant movie makers decided to add the elements to the mix. So they are doing this crazy street dancing IN THE FUCKING RAIN!!! and i mean it's like raw and powerful and got me super pumped. I would consider buying this movie. that's how much i loved it!

DANCING IN THE RAIN, BITCHES!!
Sure it's it bit fucked up how as usual teh white people come and revolutionize something that is "of the streets' and make it better. But i suspended my disbelief, and my tendency toward noticing social inequality and just went with it.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

ok i thought of something pensive to write. I am sitting in the library not working, looking out the window and it's really quite a beautiful day. I mean it's cold as balls, but there is sun, and rolling clouds and the skyline of the UofM is looking especially hogwartsian. it looks like those days when it just rained and it makes you grateful for it because it's all so clean.

I think spring is coming soon. I mean there are no sure signs but i can just feel it in my soul that those bulb plants are as frustrated as me and about ready to burst free from the ice shackles that have bound them the past few months.

Detox: day whatever

guys, confession, which is less of a confession and more of a statement. I kind of veered from the detox. I got sick last week and i really wanted some chicken soup, and let me tell you ginger soup is not as awesome as some homemade chicken souop when you are sick. so i was like, fuck this shit, and i made myself some chicken soup. Does this mean that i have not stuck to my guns on this stuff? No, i have still been eating pretty well and feeling good and running and looking mighty fine if a do say so myself.

Nothing else has really been going on aside from having an allergy skin test and finding out that i am allergic to mold, dust mites, and possibly milk. RANDOM!

Politically i've been feeling extremely apathetic. I'm over these elections. Can we just say that obama won already and have it be done?

It's cold, it's icy. winter is never ending. It's michigan, i mean what else is there to say.

I haven't been watching any tv lately, which has been really weird for me so i'm filling my time with people and books and things. TRULY ODD! but i kind of like it! i recently read a short story by Melville, per suggestion of a guy, and guys, he's not as boring as i just assumed herman melville would be. It was downright good, even.

this has been an extremely dull update. i'm ending it now

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Detox day 4

So it is the morning of my fourth day of detox and guys, seriously I FEEL GREAT!! The first day and a half were really rough but i've been playing around with my meal portions and that has really helped. Also i've started looking into what nutritional value my foods have and so i'm adding and taking away accordingly. Like i added some spinach to assure that i'm getting enough iron. and i'm sticking with yams which are crazy full of vitamins. I've also been trying some homeopathic remedies like making soups out of licorice root, ginger, and dandelion root. serious guys, this was actually way more delicious than you would imagine. Oh the other big thing was that i added some Texturized vegetable protein to my veggies mixes because i was feeling like i didn't have enough protein. Guys this shit is great!! I mean seriously i fit into my suuuper skinny jeans again with no sweat. I've been running and i'm getting muscles in my thighs that i didn't know i had. But perhaps more importantly, i feel really healthy, like really really.

Last night i had my first night out while sober. I went to a karaoke bar, the kind where you rent your own room like Azian style. Initially i was really wary since the only real reason that grad students hang out in groups larger than 3 is that they want to drink and forget about how wretched their lives are. But i started thinking how when i go home to LA, minus the times i hang out with cathy, i am usually completely sober. In fact, i often do sober karaoke with my cousins and i manage to have tons of fun. More fun even, because i don't feel like i made a giant ass of myself the next morning. Well low and behold i had a fantastic time and i totally was getting a contact high from other people. I even stayed out until like 2 am playing dr. mario at this girls house. And the best part....i woke up at 8:40 naturally with no hang over and have been up ever since doing various things. I'm going to play raquetball today with my new friend. She's potentially bisexual, goth, and loves pin up girls. doesn't that sound fun?!!

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

Pozole Recipe

This one is for Emily:
So when i cook i don't really get enjoyment out of doing it for myself, but i really like cooking for large groups of people. And whether or not my cooking is good i enjoy doing it. Most people bond with their mothers over cooking for their family. But i always bonded with my dad by cooking for other people. It's what he does for a living and he does it in mass quantities. So when it comes to family parties we always go to my dad to do the cooking, and since he worked so much this tended to be the way that we bonded. This is my paternal grandma's recipe which was passed onto my dad and now onto me. We are the only people in our family who know how to make it. But as you will see it's super easy so everyone should just do it. I have tweeked it a bit but i think for the better.

first off a couple of notes
1. i HATE meat fat. It grosses me out so this recipe involves lots of extra steps that will prevent your soup from being greasy. If you want greasy, fatty meats than do not strain the broth like i do
2. I will give you a bit of an arduous recipe for the chili soup base but you can also use cans of Las Palmas "chile colorado" and honestly it's just as good if not better.

Ingredients:
- 1 large can of hominy - you can find this at any mexican super market. they have giant cans and small cans. Take note that the hominy is most people's favorite part so make sure to get alot. Although when i made it my chinese friends preferred the pork. That is the first time i have ever seen that happen in my whole life.
- 1 large bag of dried Chile California peppers. If you can't find these, like i couldn't, you can also use Chile Guajuillo, but it's not as tasty and in that case i'd just get the cans of Las Palmas. they are big and reddish brown since they are dry and you can always find the dried chile section at the mexican market
- 3 cloves garlic
- Pork Shoulder, cut to fist sized chunks. Go to a mexican Butcher (carneceria) and you can either ask them specifically to give you the meat to make pozole or you can ask for pork shoulder. They will know and sometimes they have meats labeled according to what you can make with it. They should cut the meat for you, and ask for the least fatty ones. My dad's rule is to get 1 lb per every 2 people. He tends to overestimate but i stick to it. so you'll probably get like 5 or 6 lbs and it will seem like a lot but it will boil down to much less
- maybe 1 lb or 2 of pork espinaso (pork spine). If you cant' find this than most places have some kind of pork bones set aside. These are what's gonna give it the flavor so you wont' actually eat them

THAT WAS LITERALLY IT! can you believe it has so few ingredients....ok wait i lied cuz you need the side fixings
- cabbage - to cool down the spice
- tapatio - clearly, this is a mexican dish
- diced onions - i never put these in but the world loves onions so blaze
- limes
- good tostadas (fried corn tortillas that are whole and round) - maybe bought a a bakery or tortilla factory. no, tortilla chips won't cut it
- if you want to be real traditional you should eat radishes with it too also to cool down the heat, but most people don't actually eat the radishes. only real mexicans will
- dried oregano flakes
- chili flakes (optional)

So basic chile anatomy. The heat of a chile is in the seeds and in most salsas to make them edible you will usually take out all of the seeds like you would a bell pepper. So remove the stems from the dried chiles and using a knife cut down the middle and just wash out the seeds under the sink. since they are dried the seeds will flake right off under a little water. Take the de-seeded chiles and place them into a pot with water to boil. Just let them boil and when the water is bubbling let it simmer with a cover. This can be left cooking while you do the meat stuff.

wash your pork and in a big ass stock pot bring the bones and meat to boil. fill it up with enough water to really cover all of the meat. Make sure the water is high enough as it will assist you during the next step. To the water add plenty of salt and the 3 peeled garlic gloves. No need to mash or anything as they will basically disintegrate into the stew. Adding salt to the water as the meat is boiling is key to giving the meat and soup flavor. After the water has been boiling for about 15 minutes the fat from the pork will start to rise. It will look gross and foamy. That is the fat. You can skim it off the top with a spoon. There will be ALOT and you won't be able to get it all. to makes sure you get as much as you can though, you should mix around the meat so that the stuff from the bottom will rise to the top. This skimming process will most likely go off and on for about 30 minutes. Once all the fat has been skimmed you turn the heat to simmer, cover the pot, and just let it sit. The cooking should take like 45 minutes to an hour. When the meat is tender and you can shred it fairly easily, that is when you know it's done

While all that is cooking take the boiling chiles w/ water and set them aside. Blend the boiled chilies with some of the water they were cooked in until it is smooth wiht no chunks. Then take the blended mixture and sieve it through a really small colander. You are gonna have to use some elbow grease to squeeze all the juice through the colander and you'll end up with some really thick skin paste. You don't want this in your soup so dump it

Here is an extra step that i added because, as i said, i hate fat.
Once the pork is tender you will remove it from the water and put it in a covered dish. Sieve the broth with the small strainer making sure that all the left over fat does not end up in your final soup. Here is where it gets crazy. I then take the pork and run it under some warm water and kind of rub the fat off with my fingers so all i'm left with is plump, juicy, chunks of fat free pork. Clearly you do not have to do this, but for seers, it will make it taste bomb. Once the meat has all been cleared of fat you can add it back to the broth and remove the bones if you like.

open up the cans of hominy and add them to the pot. make sure there is not too much water that it will overflow. To make real hominy that is not canned i think you boil the shit out of dried corn kernels that are special but really i am not sure so just used the can. You want to also add the water that the hominy has been canned in as this has lots of yummy corn flavor that adds to the taste. mix that shit up and then slowly add the chile blend. At this point it's all about tasting and seeing how much is enough to make it good. the soup shouldn't quite coat a spoon but it shouldn't be clear either. i say just taste and add salt and chile blend accordingly.

As a backup you can buy a few cans of las palmas, and if the flavor just isn't right then add a little bit of those.

Let that all simmer until your guests arrive and BAM, you have some real, authentic, guadalajara style mexican pozole.

serve with squeezed lime, cabbage, etc, and dip your tostadas into it. for reals, this is the best hang over cure ever, which is probably why mexican restaurants only make it on weekends.

enjoy and tell me how it works out!

detox day 1

guys, detox is actually like really hard! I mean i knew it was gonna suck a little but i didnt' realize how hard it would be. i opted not to do the whole 10 day lemonade cleanse thing (lemons, water, syrup, and cayenne pepper) because i don't have that kidn of time to give to starvation so i think jen is gonna do a 3 day lemonade cleanse with me this sunday. But like i'm doing this other cleanse which is just herbs and veggies so here is what it entails.

do not drink anything 1 hour before you eat because it will water down your stomach acids...true story guys

wake up and drink 3 glasses of water (1 with half lemon squeezed in it).
- 1 hour later eat 1 fruit...banana whatevs
- 20 minutes later eat bowl of quinoa or some other weird grain. Quinoa is pretty filling but to now avail. i was still hungry come noon
- noon - eat 1 to 2 bowls of steamed veggies. So today i ate one bowl cuz it seemed like a huge bowl (yams, potato, cabbage, zucchini, eggplant, basically everything in my fridge) but i was starving by 4:30.
- found a nectarine in my bag and ate it (thank goodness it was there!)
- at 6 i ate the same thing.
2 times in the middle of this day you drink the water that you steamed your veggies in. It tastes liek broth...not too awesome.
supplements are like multivitamin, psyllyium, acidophilus, and various teas made of like all kinds of roots and shit.

the weird thing is i had a lot of these things already. go figure! but anyways i think this is gonna be liek alcoholism, a day to day thing. Like "today i won't eat meat" or "rice" or "pasta" or "toast." but yeah i was hungry so and it made me realize that a) i probably over eat as does everyone in this fucking country a b) maybe i should learn to subsist on less, or something. i mean i don't know.

so i think tomorrow i'm gonna eat 2 servings of veggies and see if i feel fuller.

i'll let you all know how it goes and maybe tell you about all these herbs i've learned about and their benefits.

PS i don't know if it's cheating but i came home and ate a handful of nuts. this couldn't have been bad.

But overall i feel like...i don't know how to describe it. you know how alot of times after you eat you feel full and totally gross at the same time? I don't feel either of those.

Monday, February 04, 2008

redecorating

so i have this tendency of taking about 8 months to fully move in and decorate any room that i live in. i do'nt know why this is the case but it is. So i finally think that my room is "done" meaning i have no more real space to put anything.

what you see when you walk in
my bookshelf. Febreeze, vaseline, and flonase...all essential apparently. weird blue painting of woman i bought at teh antique store for 10 dollars.
dresser, curtains, new frame reorganization
cool old pictures on ledge of my grandma, mom and her sister along with a prayer candle.
place to hang shit behind my door
cool old pics of my great grandparents and grandparents wedding
and finally proof that i need to seriously downsize. ladies and gentlemen, my closet.
i think that at some point i would like to paint the room since i am going to be living here for at least another year. I do'nt know waht color though. Maybe that will be my big project when it warms up.

Sunday, February 03, 2008

Ski Lodge!

so the ski lodge party was a great success. I remember very little of it and we were definitely all hung over until approximately 5 pm this evening so you know it had to have been a good party.

so my french roommate whom we just refer to as "the french" has this tendency of over drinking and then passing out like an hour into the party. We try to get him to pace but he blazes and so i will give you the party according to the timeline of the french.

9:45 to 10:05 the french lays on the couch and laments the fact that he has suddenly had an onset of depression. this is pretty standard and he uses the world "depressed" like i use "ridic." Also he's extremely melodramatic and on a weekly basis throws himself on the couch and listens to old french jazz while he an says "man, this place is so depressing."
10:05 to 10:15 the French puts on his long johns and decides he needs to feign a large penis with a banana we have lying around. He then noted that he'd liek to make a porn called "3 women, 1 man, 1 banana, 5 possibilities." I don't know how all that math worked out but we'll go with it. We all take our first drinks and it's all downhill from here
Then a guy shows up with my friend. I proceed to tell him how he did a good job stuffing his long johns with a banana, just as the french had done. My friends whispers to me 'it's not a banana"...I want to die a little inside.
10:15 to 11:15 the french does a very intense 5 shots of red bull and vodka in one hour and proceeds to have a blast. This is the last time we saw him.

midnight - We lose the french. he informs us this morning that he ended up passing out on his bathroom floor and was too tired to get up so he just pulled his towel down and used it as a pillow. The party blazes on as you can see from alex's expression
12:30 my friends and I start our big psych experiment of the night. We make up our own line dance and see how long it takes the White girls to join in. Since we are drunk it takes us a bit longer to synch up so 2 minutes is how long it takes. Our record to date, 10 seconds! note how initially people are like "oh what is that" and then by the next picture they are joining in.
1:00 to 2:00 various pictures of me are floating around that i vaguely remember taking such as me and a corn cob pipe.
me excited about somethingme and teh man who was 6' 6. note where my head is relative to his body. this might be my favorite picture
me and my rabbit fur hat. aren't you all jealous. i bought it at the super market. yes supermarkets in michigan sell fur huntin gear.
me and nishi taking action shots of ourselves jumping into the mountain of coats on my bed.
a snow fight organically starts on our front lawn. This must be waht growing up in winter is like for kids.
we woke up this morning feeling really really dreadful. I think it was more that we had gone to bed 5:30 and less that we were hung over. Although as big O came out of his room i said to him "why are your underwear inside out." he looked down wiht surprise and said "i have no fucking clue." that kind of summed up the night when you really think about it. The 4 of us then sat around and watched "the cutting edge" and "mystic pizza."