Various Clutter

so i've been sick since getting back from Asia and so my sleep schedule has been totally fucked...like for instance i am writing this at 4:30 cuz i woke up to pee and now can't go back to sleep. A few random things i've done and noted this week

30 Rock:
Is kind of an awesome show. Not as awesome as Arrested Development but kind of in that same vein. Who knew?! You all should watch it. It takes a few episodes to get into cuz you'll be like...this is kind of lame but then the characters grow on you and stuff

Netflix:
I rejoined due to the writer's strike. I figured i had some extra cash (and extra time) since i'm not shopping. I guess the point was to save money so maybe it's not that i shop too much but rather that i spend too much money. I am going to start watching Buffy finally after all these years. I'm not really sure why i never got into it considering how i got into like 90% of what was and is on television. But for some reason i just assumed it was gonna be lame and so never watched. I will admit...perhaps i was wrong. The only problem with me watching shows is that i like REALLY watch them....like over a 3 days span i drop everything and intensely watch...case in point, i watched 30 rock's 2 seasons over the past 2 days.

Top This Party:
is an awesome show on lifetime. I'll give you a sample...crazy blonde asian woman yelling at a gay man who can't throw her safari themed yacht party with a fire pit and won't let her drop into her OC backyard from a helicopter. watch it!

Peru:
We're going next december and we're fucking hiking that shit. bam!

The Writer's Strike:
officially sucks! man this is like throwing off my whole life! i can't believe we're losing a year of tv. pay them!! please for the love of God pay them!

Humidifier:
i bought one...i'm really excited. This does not count as shopping since as hugo put it "that has to do with your health." I did some research (googling) and settled on Slant/Fin GF-210 Germ Free Warm Mist Air Humidifier. Why didn't anyone ever tell me that a humidifier might help with my ailing sinuses in this cold dank weather?! I'm super excited...i'll let you know how it works. it's supposed to be a bit high maintenance in that you have to take lots of care of it but a bunch of humidifier geeks said that if you do take care of it is truly bomb.

And finally product alert for all you ladies out there with frizz tissues.

Straight Sexy Hair (Cost about 18 dollars online...20 dollars at Beauty Supply Store)
when i was home during thanksgiving or whenever it was that i got my BANGS! my Tia Irma cut my hair and was like "and check out this new product our salon has started using. it's awesome." And guys...it really is. If you spray this shit right before your hair is done blow drying (preferably with your Bespoke Ionic dyer...it works like crazy well AND it has rhinestones!), use your straightener (let's keep it real, if you don't have a chi then no amount of awesome product is gonna change your hair. I got mine 6 years ago and it was the best investment i have ever made), and then mist it over your hair one more time when you are done. Your hair will look shiny, silky, super striaght without looking all limp and feeling gunky the way so many straightening products can make your hair look. seriously guys, as anyone who has traveled to humid climates with me can attest, my hair is not naturally awesome. It takes a lot of work but let's keep it real when my hair looks good IT LOOKS GOOD! now all of these things cost money...but guys if straightening or drying is something you do on a daily basis than why would you do it with products that are going to damage your hair? We spend so much money on things like make up and face creams and body lotions and high heels and things. why not spread that love to your hair? I have never used their other products but based on this one i would guess that their curly sexy hair and voluminous sexy hair lines are equally awesome.

So i guess that was your consumer alert of the day.

all like zen and shit

guys, peep this shit.


this picture is kind of the story of my life...surrounded by 4 gay men on a remote island in Asia...wearing a headscarf because asia couldn't handle my tourmaline blowdryer and chi. how fucking awesome is this pic. this was taken after ivan and i (mainly ivan) kayaked like 2 miles to this remote beach and then we all jumped in the water and just focussed on the sheer awesomeness of the situation. I will do a full thailand roundup as soon as i get all the photos together and have enough time and energy to do it justice

winter 08 - we blaze to machu pichu!!

Musings from a jet lagged point of view

guys i am wicked jet lagged. like Asia FUCKED ME UP. i have been sleeping non stop and i generally feel like crap like my body is so confused and doesn't know what the fuck is going on. On a bonus note all this sleep has prevented me from eating so it's like...the best diet ever. Also the best diet ever, as discussed by ivan and i in Thailand...Typhoid and Malaria.

I’m having lots of tissues with the whole presidential things. It seems that everyone I know is voting for obama (clearly i only know liberals so this is scewed), which I am ok with but I get a little annoyed when I hear why people are not voting for hillary “I juts don’t like her personality." "i think she's cold." "i don't trust a menopausal woman." "She's not emotional enough." "what emotion she does she is fake." All of this makes me really upset because i don't actually think that she is being judged by the same standard that all the men who are running are being judged by. She truly can't fucking win because everything she does is viewed as being too much and too little and it really pisses me off. I mean basically what it comes down to is she’s a woman and therefore whatever she does will be judged in that way.

And now the whole tearing up thing.

The truth is that if she were to be president and Obama her vice she would fucking regulate this country like no other man has done. And if barrack were vice he would be awesome cuz he could be the face of our country to the world since he’s all charming and shit. But if it were to be the opposite way I don’t think Hillary would be a good vice president. so all in all i think if he doesn't win these primaries she will not be in office and no one will ever know her potential. part of me just wnats to tell people...give someone new a chance. Just because obama is black doesn't mean he's not a man, ie ever other fucking person we have had in power for our entire history.

I mean in a lot of way I think for democrats this is becoming a vote about “character” more than a vote about beliefs. It’s coming down to “who do I like more.” And the truth is people like barrack because he’s charming and they don’t like Hillary because she is, well, not. And people say that a president has to be charming but in all honesty if a woman were to be charming she would be considered silly and flirtatious as opposed to in control. To be in control a woman can't be charming in the same way that a man can be. But if we judge the qualities of a good president by the ones we have had in the past then really we would just be judging them by a male qualities. so any woman who ever runs can never compete in this male character oriented world. They will always fall short.

I'm not asking people to vote for someone just because she has a vagina but i'm saying that we should really look at why we are voting for someone else. i think that if Hillary were to win, anything bad that would happen would be blamed on her being a woman. But if Obama were to win anything bad would be blamed on his character. But as a woman our characters are inextricably tied to our womanhood, and this makes it really hard to get anywhere in a male oriented world.

i'm just real annoyed is all i'm saying because basically this is all some fucking sexist bullshit.

So I just got back into LA/America last night. The flights were long and fairly awful although thanks to china airlines we were fed ridiculous amounts of foods which included rice porridge, various deserts, dim sum, steamed dumplings and other Asian delicacies. Take that stupid north american airlines! So anyways I’m catching up on my celeb gossip (don’t worry, ivan and I heard about Britney as it was happening since it appeared as a news story on aljizeera!!! What the fuck!) but all I keep seeing in the news is “storm watch 2008!” Basically it’s raining in California and people are seriously freaking out. Schwartzenegger is calling it like a disaster zone and it’s just crazy. But I’m looking at images on the news and I’m like..oh this looks like a Tuesday afternoon in ann arbor. Seriously people, chill out! The world is falling apart but leave it to LA local news to focus on Britney and rain. speaking of britney, what a fucking mess.

All my friends seem to be talking about new years resolutions and such and the thing is I was so busy kayaking around islands and frolicking on the beach that I didn’t even think about new years. Nor did I think about the fact that basically when I get back into AA at 6am I will have to jump right into winter quarter. So I think I will take some time today to think about what I want from myself this year.

The one that I have officially decided upon is that I am not shopping this year. I know…I might die. But if I could survive the writer’s strike I am sure that I can survive a year of not shopping. So basically I am only buying what I need and what I need does NOT include a cute new dress to wear on Friday night. I want to pay off my bills and visit my cousin in munich this year and backpack through mexico and generally just spend my live living instead of spending it looking cute. Plus let's be honest, i am a bit disgusted by the amount of clothing that i have. it's disgusting how much shit i have in my room. time to downsize!

So this girl I know got engaged along with everyone in the fucking world. I mean obviously these are not real people that i actually know because these people would not invite me to their weddings but I mean like people that i am in contact with via facebook or office proximity. I mean this is the marrying age, i suppose. Anyways this girl started an engagement/wedding blog like the next day and I just don’t get these things. People like freak out and like day 1 start planning their nuptials. I think of myself as the kind of person who doesn’t care about such poppycock but I also fear that if and when it actually does happen to me I may be THAT kind of person. You know, the kind of person who puts a countdown to my wedding on facebook or the kind of person who makes my facebook pic a couple pic, or the kind of person who “we’s” everybody because I am no longer a “me.” I mean what if I ‘m the kind of person who cooks and cleans for my man and like lives in the suburbs and had babies and drives a mini van! Like what if this is who I am and it just has not be activated yet!

Christmas came early this year!

Well the past 3 days have been truly enyoyable to the max.

Friday: Gingerbread house party
Guys, this was actually super fun, like more fun than i even imagined, and trust, me i had really high hopes for this. Cathy of course got too drunk to actually build a house and ended up passing out but ivan and i blazed on thusssssssly. Our theme? Christmas with Jane Austen. I made a Tudor style cottage with thatched roof while ivan made the town vicarage. Basically we were trying to recreate Sense and Sensibility meets Little Women, which was not at all british but i wanted an excuse to make a gazebo in which Meg March could get married.

candy cane gazebo! dah!!pretzel cross! double dahhh!! note the archway under which Marianne and Colonel Brandon can walk under after their wedding!!
favorite quote of the night, Ivan's response to someone accidentally kicking the table: "My Vicarage is not tectonically sound!!"

Then we decided to watch "just friends" which is not a great movie but is an enjoyable movie if not for this scene alone


We all passed out and woke up with coconut shavings on our asses, and then went to eat In n out. so in conclusion...good times!

Saturday night, family christmas party (2 days before actual christmas, stupid yes, but fun):
My uncle has like a totally pimped out game room with a pool table, gigantic tv, monster sound system, chordless magic mic (with 2 mic's for harmonizing!!) and guitar hero with 3 dueling guitars! like HELLO!! Anyways all this technology made me feel really old since i had to do super easy mode to "hit me with your best shot" while my cousin was doing like the highest level wiht some Green Day song that she thought was "a classic." i was all like "what are all these buttons?!" We did some karaoke where i dazzled these kids with some Celine. ummph! But then my cousin's friend started singing that five for fighting song about living to be 100 and being 53 or something. i was like...laaaamee! It irks me how some people just don't understand karaoke. the point is to sing fun silly songs not real songs! Then Alix and i did a rocking rendition of My Sharona where we went so crazy with the dancing that i think i lost 10 lbs. Then everyone left and my other gay cousin and I just sang this really heartfelt version of "i wanna know what love is" by foreigner with full on harmonies. It was so intense that we didn't even have to stand up. We just sat on the couch and just rolled around while belting it out. i looked at him after and i was like "ok seriously, that was kind of amazing." He agreed. We turned around to see a group of 15 year olds staring at us like we were crazy.

us singing Whitney "greatest love of all" which we both agreed was a ridiculously dramatic song. look at the words and you will understand. Can you feel our eeeemotions!??! I'm wearing skinny black jeans and a flowy top AND my bangs are out of control. Seriously, who am i.

me and my nephew and my mom in the corner who is probably saying something philosophical.
dahh!! what is it about baby onesies and trumpette socks that just makes me want to romp around
Sunday Annual movie marathon:
so my cousin and my mom and i usually take a day during christmas daycation to just be gluttonous and go see like 3 movies. We don't sneak in, we actually pay, because my mom thinks it would be sad for a 57 year old to get caught sneaking into a movie. She says we'll understand someday. Anyways yesterday we decided to include my aunt, who i worried wouldn't have enough stamina to hold out the whole day, and my other cousin Fanny. people, we seriously BLAZED like we have never BLAZED before!! we saw 4 movies!$#!

1. The Savages: an altogether depressing movie, but well acted. Oscar worthy but not like the best movie ever. But like i said...totally depressing

2. Juno: awesome and really cute and makes me love Michael Cera even more even though i think he might be underage or like 18 or something. Movies like this make me dream but also make me pissed because guys didn't care about girls like this in real life high school so stop FUCKING WITH WOMEN'S YOUNG MINDS AND MAKING THEM THINK SHIT LIKE THIS HAPPENS!! Anyways it was reeeeeaaaal good

3. I am Legend - my cousin wanted to see it so we had to appease him since we had made him watch two female oriented movies. It was enjoyable and a blockbuster. obviously not gonna change the world but you know...it was will smith

4. Atonement: guys this surprisingly awesome. I had seen the preview and kept thinking, either this is the lamest preview ever or this movie is actually lame. But it was not! It was really really good. We all agreed it was the best one we had seen all day, which says a lot. And I think that the love scene in the library was quite possibly the hottest love scene i have ever seen. I mean you can't just fast forward to the love scene because what makes it hot is the sexual tension and build up of the first hour or so of the movie. They didn't even show much skin or like titty or anything. but seriously...i don't fantasize much about things like that but, man, it made me think!

All in all we only lost one soldier in the whole battle, and that was because she had a baby she had to go home to. legit reason. Also another reason why you should not have children for a long time because then you can't go see 4 movies in a day, because you have like, responsibilities and stuff. how sad. 4 of us went to dinner afterwards and i was like "guys i feel like i just got off of a night of binge drinking and now i have the munchies." because that was what it felt liek! i was tired and incoherent, but laughing at everything and i was soooo hungry. so we feasted and then drove home.

The most awesome part of the night, and perhaps the weekend, though occurred during our drive home. I looked at the moon which was surprisingly bright for an LA night and noted that there was a weird star like dot like a thumbs distance to the right of the moon. Seriously it was right on the moon. I let everyone know and because i had been watching too much Battlestar i was like "do you think the cylons have found us!" my cousin responded "maybe it's Galactica and they have finally discovered the lost 13th colony of kobol!!!" then my aunt said "guys, maybe it's santa!" We all were a little weirded out, but agreed that if it was indeed some kind of alien spacecraft of a meteor or something that was sent to destroy us at least we knew how to survive as the last people on earth after watching Legend. We all got silent...and fanny goes "hey guys, that's kind of freaky." my imagination started to get the better of me and we all started worrying that maybe while we were off watching movies the world was somehow going to end in 13 hours or something. I told my mom to turn on the radio station to see if like...maybe this was something bad, but the raeggaeton was blazing on so i assumed that it was not the apocolypse.

We got home and quickly googled "astronomy" where low and behold we discovered that this red dot was actually Mars. I guess every 10 to 20 years it hits a spot on its orbit where it reflects off the sun and then you can see it right next to the moon! I mean I don’t really know if this is how it works but this is the dumbed down version of what my 13 year old astronomy geek cousin explained to me.

Anyways the whole moment was really very magicarrr and i'm glad i go got to share it with the ones i love. And now i share it with all 4 of my readers. If you look up tonight you will not regret it because tonight is when it's supposed to be the brightest.

Peace out, merry christmas, and xoxo.

christmastime is here...

so i'm in la which means that i've been listening to american and spanish top 40, NON STOP. it's kind of ridiculous. I just love how in LA you can shamelessly listen to this shit. Anywhere else people would mock you, but here it's like "you don't know the new Kanye song?" and i don't!! But i do know that i love the enrique iglesias "ping pong song" love it! i mean it literally has ping pongs hitting a table in teh background. waht the fuck! and yet, so catchy. Or that one about apple-bottom jeans and fur boots. And dont' even get me started on Fergie. She i like my herpes. I can't get rid of her. She just makes me want to dance while drunk.

So since i'm here i spend a majority of my day in a car. I miss walking down the street in the snow. what is wrong with me! anyways in between all this shit music i've been listening to the christmas music station which just really bums me out. I have decided that 2 singers who can make me weep no matter what the song content is are Karen Carpenter and James Taylor. Seriously how they have this effect on me, i do not know. I used to think the carpenters were happy but after seeing the behind the music on karen carpenter i just hear such sadness in her voice. Adn james taylor....just very pure, too pure, like tears pure.

the point of this post was to inform you all that in between my bouts of traffic and shopping malls i have been watching battlestar galactica NON STOP! seriously i started like 4 days ago and i'm already pretty much done with season 2. that's liek over 20 hours of television. But it's so good! It's like star wars with really hot people and contemporary topics.

no just to end this i leave you with my all time favorite christmas song. wham! why do you sing to my soul??? That synthesizer is just so good. Cathy once said that if she has kids she won't make them learn violin or anything. She's just gonna have them take synthesizer lessons so they can play wham! songs for her.

my favorite parts: 1. when he whispers (time stamp 1:29) "merry christmas...I wrapped it up and sent it!"

also when he says "crowded room...friends with tired eyes." I just feel like he paints a picture of an awesome party that i totally want to be at.



cathy and i plan to recreate this party on Friday night when we host our first annual "the christmas i never had as a child" party. We're gonna make gingerbread houses and listen to this song on repeat and as she puts its "once we get drunk, we can sway to that depressing charlie brown christmas tune where the children go "la la la, la la laaaa..." this is the plan

thingssss

so i have good news and bad news. The good news is I GOT A NEW CAMERA so consider this the official return of the photo blog. the bad news is i'm back in LA which means i have done nothing but go to malls which means this post is gonna be all about my buys.

A few observations. Forever 21 is taking over the world...and i love it!! So if you all didn't know they have this new spin off store called "heritage 1981." it's like the american eagle version of forever 21, so like retro preppy. it's very cool and a few of us discovered it in michigan. V. random that we would be that our malls would include such a store but they do. But today i discovered something even more awesome. They have another spin off store called "forever love 21" which is all accesories. EEEEEMAGINE!! how many times have you said "god i love that i can just run into forever 21 and buy $2 earings or a $5 necklace." Now imagine a whole store of that. you would die. I died. So this all leads to my observations

1. Fish are the new owls of jewelry. And i'm talking like really cool greek looking fish.
2. African jewelry is the new plastic jewelry. What i mean is that the way big plastic things were in for a while, wooden and raw metallic tribal things are in now.

All of this excites me immensely.

So the purpose of these shopping trips was two fold. I needed to a) buy a few things for thailand. woo! and b) buy some cutish winter clothes for when i go back to hell.

a couple of sweaters i bought. They have some angora in them and have that really worn, comfy look. perfect for my exploration of jcrew prep, sans the actual jcrew brand. I love jcrew's ideas and i often model outfits after what i see in their catalogue, but let's keep it real for a second here. I am not a 5'10 nordic blonde girl, and their clothes just does not fit me. so i have to blaze on to more petite pastures.
let me set the scene for this next pic. I'm walking down the beach in phuket looking fabulous.. that is it. that is the scene. Speaking of which i am not going to be able to do my hair so i have decided i am going to just wear lots of head scarves and it will be awesome.
dress print up close
new lacoste tennis shoes. I have been a big fan of their shoes since i bought my first pair when i was studying in florence. they are way awesome and more comfortable than all stars but same style. Also they were 40% off. bonus!!

this is the print on the thermal bottoms i bought. cute and a half
sweater. it has pearl buttons
now bare with me on this next one. I was planning on wearing it with my skinny black jeans since i need a bit of flowiness on the top area to compliment the tight bottom. yes, it's a bit school teacher meets my mom in 1986, but i'm ok with that cuz my mom was hella in style.
now here is something i have been wanting for a while. There are so many days when i walk outside and think "this is perfect puffy vest weather. if only i had one!" They tend to be so expensive and i just can't commit to paying that much for something that i will probably regret buying so i opted for the cheap version. But i dig it cuz i'ts kind of shiny retroish and it has a detachable hood with sheerling lining!
now for the jewels
awesome purple earings i plan on rocking
see what i mean by the tribal inspired necklaces
this has shalacked on sequin. love it!
don't know how i will wear this yet since i haven't envisioned it but i'm excited nonetheless
the fish i spoke of earlier. I like it because it has movement.

ps, i love the macro function on my camera. thanks cathy, for introducing me to it a while back.
and finally, in conclusion, "Hi, i am ridiculous!"

American! fuck yeah!!

Guys! i have such good news and i have to share it with the blogosphere, ie my 4 friends who read this! ok drumroll....

MY DAD JUST PASSED HIS CITIZENSHIP TEST!!!

yes, my father is officially a US citizen!! finally just 6 days after this 58th birthday, after exactly 40 years in this country he can officially call himself an American. these are things that people with American roots never understand. LIke talking about politics is kind weird because you can't really say "who are you voting for" since they can't vote. And when you go on vacation your family has to split into the citizens and non citizen and you say "we'll meet you in baggage claim." I think my father has always had this romantic view of Mexico as being like his real homeland. I mean, this is not to say that he doesn't love the US because he might love it more than your average middle class American. But people often don't think about what they would do in those situations. They criticize and say "well just go back to (fill in blank for original birth country) if you love it so much! how ungrateful!" The truth is though, that if i moved somewhere else, no matter how much i loved it i would still have a really special place in my heart for the United States. And i'd probably dream of someday movign back when i get old. And i'd have a really hard time giving up my citizenship because that's like giving up your name or something. So when he finally decided to apply for citizenship early this year I asked him waht had made me change his mind. He said that he was driving by the Staples Center one day on his lunch route and they were having a swearing in ceremony. He said he saw all of these people who looked really, basically fresh off the boat, and i mean like they looked real foreign. He said he looked at them and thought to himself "i am more american than these people! this is silly." And he decided to go apply the next day.

and now i just feel so happy that he passed. I also feel really sad that i wasn't there to take him to his test, or to help him study. I didn't even remember to call him for his birthday! i feel like a terrible daughter.

necessity is the mother of invention

guys, confession. i tend to eat really weird, bland shit. I mean like i will just throw wahtever is there in a pot and MAKE IT WORK! well today i was quite surprised to find that i made something decent. I have this goal to not buy food but rather just use up all the shit that is currently in my freezer or pantry until it all runs out. aside from buying a few bananas, apples, and soymilk weekly i have been doing this for a month. Yes, i had that much food in my pantry. gross. Well I'm hitting the bottom of the barrel now so i was pleasantly pleased to have made something edible tonight.

so it started with some boiling water. I looked in the fridge for some flavoring and found some miso paste, a surprisingly good thing to have in your fridge...Also found an egg, that was probably old but still edible. don't judge me. threw it all the pot to hard boil. Added some chicken broth for flavoring. Then went through the pantry for some sort of protein base like a noodle or something. Soba noodles. done! And then i went into the freezer for some veggies. spinach and soy beans, check. at this point i just let it all sit for a few more minutes and put that shit in a bowl and bam! delicious! The only thing that would have made it better would have been some tofu.

so i have a few recommendations to the single ladies out there who want flavor but not fat and who don't really want to cook. These are excellent things to have lying around your fridge. as mentioned before, miso paste. useful in many ways for fishes and stews. stalk obviously, but this is something i discovered liek 2 years ago since I didn't really grow up in a stalk using house so i wil ljust throw it out there for peopel who have not used this product. Frozen edamame beans are liek SO AWESOME! i throw them in some boiling water for liek 3 minutes and throw them in a tupperware, throw some salt on it and BAM, delicious snack for later in the day. Frozen spinach has also turned out to be surprisingly good. I mean i feel like i eat the way that parents feed their babies, where it's not about flavor but about getting all of their nutrients in. So sometimes i'll just boil some veggies and throw them atop some rice. Tofu. Seriously throw that shit in some boiling chicken stalk and in like 2 minutes you have something that is healthful and edible. serioulsy guys, try this shit out. My soup would have been awesome with some real asian spinach based ramen and not soba.

so i guess the saying really is true. necessity truly is the mother of invention. Now what to do wiht the left over eggs, shallots, and can of garbanzos

wicked

So i just got back from seeing Wicked. Now I don't want to be one of those musical geeks that is like "Oh my God! wicked is like the BEST SHOW EVER!!" But seriously, it kind of was. I've seen a decent amount of broadway shows that have come through LA and SF (i'm an andrew lloyd webber girl myself. gay!) but this was seriously awesome. sheer awesomeness. I think part of the reason i liked it is that they had an ugly betty episode a few weeks ago where they go see wicked and show clips of the music and it kidn of got me all eeeemotional.

can i go off on a mini rant about how i hate people who think that rent was teh best show ever and walk around singing "seasons of love" all the time. I didn't actually get to see Rent because my mom isn't into rock musicals and i managed to miss it both times it came through LA and SF but i saw the movie and was like....i mean i guess.

but the point of this was that wicked was really good and if it comes into your city you should spend the 100 dollars with the ticketmaster extra charges and see it.

new meaning to "having an MK moment"

OMG Mary Kate his a kidney infection! no joke! shut up perez because even though i love you, seriously you do not even know how much kidney infections suck more than a lot of things in life. so to you, MK, i say

"get well, get well soon, we want you to get well."

Why i think I'm cooler than i actually am

It is not totally uncommon for Emily and I to sit around (and by sit around i mean chat online) and talk about how we could be friends with various celebrities. some that come to mind are john mayer (why are we not friends and even more, why are we not lovers!!) and the go fug yourself girls. But in a recent blog entry Emily noted that she started reading Kelly Kapur’s blog (from the office). And I don’t mean her office blog but I mean like her blog blog where she is like a real person. And now 3 hours later I have officially read her entire blog and decided that I should be friends with her too Hello we’d totally be BFF in real life. This girl has no shame, and neither do i! how often to I make lame confessions about how much I love uggs or shop at forever 21 on a weekly basis or spend $100 on a hoody!! Shame is so overrated. And her favorite movie is you’ve got mail. !!!!!!!!!! hello! I would die! I fucking love that movie and it’s actually not a very good movie but I just get so much pleasure from it.

“never marry a man that lies.”

Words to live by!! Ugh so the ultimate question is, if celebrities are so similar to me should I really have been famous OR should I just somehow find a way to be friends with famous people? And no offense to you all but why are you all not famous in some capacity so that we could share a blog together and people would see via you how awesome I am? also why do i still have this high school mentality where i want to be popular? will the uncool fat girl inside of me ever die!

A quote from a post she wrote where she categorizes different shoe brands and concludes what her favorite brand is

But if I was a twenty-something crazily consumeristic comedy writer-performer who wants glitzy bad-ass shoes to wear to red carpet events, and then keep them on later to prance around in at 3AM when I'm only in a bra and underwear singing Gwen Stefani's "Luxurious" as a striptease for my boyfriend...I would wear Christan Louboutin.

This just made me laugh so much because whenever i think of "luxxxurious" i imagine ivan doing some kind of ridiculous dance in our dodge caliber while driving through the rainforest of Puerto Rico.

PS I just reread what i wrote and thought to myself "oh you spelled 'imagine' wrong. it's supposed to be with an E." what is wrong with me!

Tonight my mom showed me how to make pork in a salsa stew type thing and lentil soup. This shit was BOMB! So good. But my mom and I both agreed that I was made to suit my pallet, which is to say it may have been very bland. She said that when I was like 6 if something was too salty or savory I would say “this is too flavorful.” It’s one of those funny things to me because I could easily imagine myself saying this right now since I tend to like bland foods.

I've taken the jump into full hipsterdom this past week when i decided that i'm taking my parents record player back to school with me. I mean who am i? in reality i'm not that lame because i didn't go seek out some record player on craigslist or something but rather it was lying around the house unused but i'm probably an equally lame person as those other people. But i think it needs a new needle or something. Maybe i'll start wearing headscarves and oversized glasses too.

On another note I’m completely and totally addicted to hard tail products. They make pricey lounge/yoga wear. I don't do yoga and if i did (which i have) i most likely would not wear actual yoga wear. I hesitate to call their products overpriced because I find their stuff to be totally worth what you pay. That being said I own a couple pair of $50 sweat pants which I completely acknowledge as being ridiculous considering my income. But i also buy $300 shoes so really it shouldn’t be that shocking to anyone who knows me. I just really value my relaxation time and rationalize needing nice, flattering comfort wear.

I went to see "before the devil knows your dead" or something like that. It was pretty stark and depressing but very well acted. I"m not sure i recommend it though. But on Sunday my mom and i saw "dan in real life" and it was surprisingly excellent. I laughed, i cried and it touched me. i definitely recommend that. Tomorrow we're gonna go see wicked so we'll see how that goes. We're also spending time iwht my 14 year old cousin. teen angst!!

i love helLA

so i'm back in LA and as usual my regression into high school mode continues in full force. It nearly culminated tonight when i almost went to the movies with my 16 year old cousin and her boyfriend (their names are actually Alex and Alix. And they are artists and do creative my space pictures of themselves and they started a club at their high school called the happy hippies where they make tie dyed shirts and sell them for charity. Kind of awesome me thinks but also ridiculous in a way that only members of my family can truly be). So anyways as if it wasn't bad enough to go to the movies with 16 year olds I was going to have them pick me up in their car and drive me. I contemplated just getting trashed in my dad's office and having them be my sober drivers to make the experience all the better but alas it did not happen and i spent the night chatting about "women and the bad choices that they make" with my mom and aunt.

Maybe it's that's my age is allowing me to see things in a new way but man, women make some stupid choices. And you can either live with it and as carrie once said "choose your choice" or you can spend your life being miserable. We got to talking and it came out that my mom has actually spent a lot of her life trying to live happily with the shitty choices she's made in life and in reality she kind of could be miserable because she hates her job and stuff. But in the end she lies to herself and chooses her choice and seems fairly ok with it. This is a lot like the time last summer when i realized my grandpa really was the big asshole that my grandma always said he was, and it got me seeing her POV that she was just a woman trapped in a bad situation and not the bitch i always thought her to be. Point being those are two examples of choosing your choice and not choosing your choice and being miserable.

this is all relevant because lately i've been wondeirng about grad school and considering what i would do if i dropped out. I mean, i haven't quite made a choice yet but it's pressing on my heart, this feeling like maybe this is not waht i want to do. And i can really only equate it to marriage. I mean i've never been married but i hear people talk about and sometimes it's liek you wake up one day with this guy you dont' necessarily like and you have a baby and a house payment and a car payment and a job yo u hate and it's like "oh my god is this my life!" And at that point you have to decide if you want to blaze on or just freak out and focus on all the things that your life is not. so i feel like in many ways school and my pending career have become this marriage that i cannot quite get out of. And sometimes i wake up and i'm liek "shit i could be out in ny city working at an ad agency or i could be doing ANYTHING BUT THIS!" But i have put more than 18 years into this marriage and i can't just walk away. And on a less deep level this is a lot like my relationship with grey's anatomy. But point being i used to think that having all these degrees and being "passionate" about my job would prevent me from making the same mistakes all the women in my family have made ie hating their lives. but in the end i could very well just end up repeating them.

annnyways on a lighter note I GOT BANGS!! yes, for reals bangs. But as i told cathy, if this were a chapter in the book of my life it would be entitled "the truth about bangs: what no one ever tells you." Like how when you wake up you look like a hot fucking mess. But i still like them. Speaking of catherine we attempted to be super cultured and take a "walking tour" of downtown la so that we could come to knwo the city we have spent a good majority of our lives in. We had great hopes for this walking tour which included libraries and art and shit. the reality was it ended up being filled with sangwhiches, pupusas, and being chased off by a korean women in a botanical shop for trying to open up her jar of "cat nails." The most interesting finding of the day was learning that st. Clare is the st. of television. I almost bought the st. clare medal but felt liek i cant' wear an ironic saints metal cuz THAT would be taking it too far. So in the end we threw in teh towel and thought that perhaps a trip to the mall might be a bit more appropriate. there was this realization as we roamed the streets of downtown that despite teh fact that we had been raised in LA county there is a big difference between city Angelinos and suburban angelinos. And in the end, we felt that the people from the suburbs of LA had a lto more character. I cant' quite describe why but it must have something to do with shameless commercialization or something. if anyone can think of a better way of putting it please do. Then we drove out to fullerton and i got all hipstered out with my new BANGS! we went to this dueling piano bar which was truly good times, except for the fact that the resbian piano player would not honor our $5 request for "always be my baby." yet she knew the killers. What is wrong with this picture.

so anyways my mom and i are doing the womanly bonding where she is teaching me how to cook, not for a man but rather for the sheer fact that once she dies all my grandma's recipes will die so the giant albondiga of burden lies on my shoulders.

well i think that's enough for now. Stay tuned perhaps for some pics and stories of our first annual Acosta/Hernandez family guitar hero championship....another of the many ways my cousins have attempted to occupy our time at family events.

The Girl from Ipanema

So tonight Jen and i went to see this brazilian singer/guitar player named Caetano Veloso. He was AWESOME!! and we managed to get tickets for 10 dollars because we are students. This guy seriously goes on my list of top 3 live performers i have seen in my life. This list includes paul mccartney and josh ritter. Random, i know. But what i always say is that they are teh kind of people who could be playing in your living room or in a giant ampitheatre and they would still manage to have the same kind of stage presence. and i tell you, this guy could turn a dead audience alive! anyways it was real fun. He does this style of music called tropicalismo which incorporates all these brazilian styles like bossa nova with a hint of beatles rock and roll. real cool shit.

so anyways i have this really profound love of bossa nova music. It's so damn sexy and makes me want to sway, especially teh song "the girl from ipanema." One time after a 4th of july party at my uncle's house we were all sitting around the firepit, and my cousin alix put on the girl from ipanema and we all started swaying and laughing and stuff. and out of nowhere my dad goes "wow i havent' heard this song in so long. I remember when i was young i used to hear this song on the radio and i would say to myself 'wow, what must this girl from ipanema be like? she must be so beautiful.' I could not even imagine. And then i met Graciela and as i saw her walking i remember telling her 'you are like my girl from ipanema." EEEmagine if someone said that to you! liek for reals!! cuz my mom was all tall and tan and young and lovely and shit. but still liek eeeemagine! ugh.

so i started listening to the song tonight when i got home cuz i was in a swayey mood and i had this other fond memory of Joteria 2007 (aka, the disaster that was Puerto Rico). There was one magical night when we had decided to stay in a really fancy hotel to make up for all the shit of our trip. so we were in this awesome hotel wiht beautiful decor and we had just watched the sunset. And Cathy decided to turn on the girl from ipanema. I'm almost 100% sure we were drunk. We listened to the girl from ipanema on repeat for about 3 hours while we all danced and swayed and eventually passed out and took a long nap only to wake up and eat the greatest spare ribs of all our lives.

so i confess that sometimes in my room at night i turn on the girl from ipanema and i just sway a little especially at the part when he says "and whne she passes each one she passes goes....ahhhhhhh" umph!!

i have an ann arbor reader. reveal yourself, my friend. If this person is not revealed within the next few days i may be forced to shut down this whole thing for fear of being discovered.

new york?

I wrote this on thursday night and i feel it is quite relevant given that i did not actually go to new york. in retrospect it's kind of funny given the complete and utter unfabulousness o fmy weekend which included a car wash, a trip to home depot, and a bowl of ramen. will discuss that later today.

guys i'm taking my first trip EVER to new york in a day. And who better to guide me on my first time than my main homosexxxxxxual, ivan. I think we shall romp and frollick and shop til we drop. Or we could just look at window displays and eat soft serve from mcdonalds. whatevs. So in honor of this trip i've been catching up on my fashion mags and making a list of "things to buy in NY." I was falling asleep in class yesterday and decided that i should draw my ideal outfits and write this list in various colors. It's the little things that make my life livable, really. so here it is!

- puffy vest - shameful but true. i have always wanted a puffy vest and yesterday as it was 50 degrees and not cold enough for a winter coat but not hot enough to not have some kind of wind resistance i thought "today would be an ideal puffy vest day."

- Black flat leather boots that go 3 inches below my knee - finding boots is always really hard because despite having my moments of feeling fat and what not the truth is proportionately i am normal to any person but size wise i am mini so things are not made for peopel of my stature. Boots tend to be too loose on my calves making my legs look like i'm swimming while walking, or they are way too tall. But i really think that in order to explore my new fall look of opaque tights and mini dresses and skirts i really need black flat boots.

- Mini denim skirt - i mean this is not a necessity but a nice dark wash one would be nice. I imagine wearing itwith black tights, black boots, and a white/cream colored turtle neck AND a tartan headband

- mini skirts either tweed, tartan, or knit. I was contemplating even knitting my own skirt in the next few days. I mean basically all you need is a hoop which i have. i shall look at patterns and consdier this option. what color should it be? grey??? Basically i want it like this only way more awesome.

- pleated formal shorts. guys, i know. who am i!! but seriously i have this magical outfit i've been dreaming up in my head of some wool pleated almost poofy cuffed formal mini shorts (shoot me please cathy) that i could wear with black tights and black boots and some kind of top and a flowy scarf and i think it would really kind of be ridiculous enough to be awesome. when i find a pic i will post it

- cream colored or grey knit hat like this
- also i need new urban tennis shoes. maybe i'l ljust bite the big one and finally purchase some all stars. i have so many issues with shoes that i used to pay 20 bucks for in junior high now costing 45 dollars. what the fuck. Well i saw some grey ones that i like and i might just say fuck itand

Dr. Jeffrey Thompson, I love you

So a few of us had dinner tonight and watched the office (heart!) and then beauty and the geek. I tell you, sometimes this show throws me. There were some questions that we didin't know! we are phd students for fuck's sake! example "what are the first 7 words (or some number) of the gettysburg address?" now clearly somehwere in my plethora of knowledge that info is stored up there with how to spell things and do math. But at the moment we all looked at each other and were liek "fuck what IS it!" And then i was liek "wait wait wait, forescore and seven years ago....thank GOD we know it!" And we all breathed a sigh of relief. But i find it a bit sad how our knowledge becomes so specialized and in order to store the new knowledge our brain but finds ways to shrink and push back the old knowledge. There is a cognitive term for this that i also know but can't think of right now so i'll just call it "the more degrees i have, the dumber i get."

So I'm pretty much broke because all of my money has gone toward my orthodontic bills to pay for my TMJ treatments. Now i have a plastic piece in my mouth that acts as a cast making my jaw sit in a different place from where it usually sits so as to relieve my tempo mandibular joint pressure. Yes, very awesome. Basically i have a plastic retainer on my lower teeth and i have to eat with it because eating and sleeping is when the most pressure is placed on the TMJ so blah blah. I look like a geek wiht food stuck in my retainer and it's kind of disgusting and i brush my teeth like 6 times a day. to top it off it also exacerbates my lisp. it's ok though, cuz i'm on hiatus.

Oh in other news i have to make a confession. so i don't sleep very well. Part of me thinks it might be my stress but i guess it might also be this whole teeth clenching thing. but anyways i decided to say fuck it and just go buy one of those "serenity now" sleeping cd's. I went to the new age section at borders and there were so many options! i was like....hmm should i get ocean sounds or should i get "pure moods" the 5 cd box set. In the end i opted for some cd called "peaceful: music for sleep." but being a consumer whore, this is why i bought it. check out what the cover says.

Dr. Jeffrey Thompson's clinically proven musical system helps you fall sleep, stay asleep, and wake up feeling rested and refreshed. Meditative melodies, flutes, piano, guitar, and strings, embedded with Delta Wave Pulses irresistibly lull you to sleep

tell me you would not have bought that!! hello it sounds awesome. i dont' know what the fuck delta wave pulses are but i can imagine that they are useful and shit. so anyways i've been using it for the past week and i find it all very embarassing and this will definitely go into my folder of "shameful single behavior" that i will surely hide from my future significant other. But seriously i kind of love it!! Dr. Jeffrey Thompson has other ones too liek "ambient: music for sleep" and "serenity: music for sleep." I'm thinking i need to mix it up and maybe get a few of these cd's and just rotate them. If anyone would like a copy of my cd it's a 1 hour clip. i will send you that shit because i am a good person like that.

So i leave you with some poetry

But my heart, is a house
Will you come, and move in
Leave a space, for us to give
....
It's the sound, that I want
It's the low, belting cough
It's the size, of my heart,
It's the house, can we start.

No i didin't write it because i don't write poetry. but i like the song and the words are very, how you say....i don't know. I just like them.

How i am apparently a racist against my own people

So i was watching the Hills today (last night's episode) and there was this brilliant editting moment. Let me describe. So they justapose this scene of LC at Brody Jenner's birthday in Vegas chilling at the pool and drinking and being fabulous at Pure along with Heide and Spencer in LA eating at Don Antonio's. The reason this scene cracked me up was because sometimes i feel like i wish i was in a serious relationship and engaged or married or whatever shit like that. but then there are moments when my life is so fabulous, like LC in Vegas. And i think to myself "my life would not be this fabulous if i were married and had a house and non Ikea furniture and didn't have roommates." Instead my life might be like Heidi's, no friends eating second rate mexican food with my douchebag fiance. But my life isn't like that. My life does have it's moments of fabulosity. So what i'm saying is, there are pros and cons. clearly this is all subjective and someone else might have watched the show and thought "wow LC's life is lame. Heidi's life is awesome!" But for me heidi's life was my worst nightmare.

oh want to see something funny. This is some guy that came to our house party a few weeks ago and found it racist. What makes me laugh is like...hello we are in michigan. liek how mexican can a party be? if i could have made mole and hired a mariachi band and drank don julio tequila and done el grito at midnight i would have. but instead i had a pinata and mexicans flags and virgen mary candles because that is what i can get in Michigan.

a REAL update, the return of the photo option

so amidst all the parties and fabulousness it's been difficult maintaining this blog in any real way. So we had another little shindig at my place because Big O's girlfriend is moving to paris for a year. yes this is very sad, but sad occasions are also excuses to drink a lot and dance very late into the night to Sean Paul "i'm still in love." this and r. kelly's "Step in the name of love" are my house's official theme songs, and we like to play them when everyone but our key friends (who will eventually pass out on the couch) have left and we are drunkenly slow motion dancing in the living room. good times, indeed. so before making an appearance at my own party I had to make a little cameo and a homosssssexxxxual festivity.

this is me, a gay and a rrrresbian. Or maybe she's bisexual. She also reminds me a lot of janeane garaffalo in reality bites. we were trying to do Tyra's "deconstruction of the human body" pose. failed, me thinks.
this was another drunken attempt at the same pose
I think there isn't enough death in my body langauge. PS look at my new fabulous shoes. patent leather mary janes = awesome! "but why are you wearing glasses, xtina" you may ask. Well my backup plan was to go to this theme party called "the bang" where the theme was back to school. I was going as a sexy teacher and i was gonna have an apple in one hand and a ruler in the other. i ended up not going so as usual i just looked a little oddly dressed. To be honest though this is not very different from how i would normally dress on a weekend.

then i got back to my house and continued to spread the fabulousness around that house
my friend kristen was visiting town which was very exciting to everyone but the frenchman in the background, as you can see.
so i live with the guy in the front, big O, the sour frenchman Bert, who is actually really nice and seriously eats nothing but cheese, bread and pasta. like the stereotypes of european diets is no lie. And i also live with the indian girl, A. yes, we are so multicultural. All we need is a black person.

So at one point the girls got together for a Vagina picture and i had this brilliant idea that since Minayo was moving we should carry her across our arms. in my head this would make for a great picture. this is me coaxing her "come on, just the tip."
the result was a disaster. We dropped her. Fernando was taking pictures of the whole thing and he was cracking up because me and A are standing there cracking up not even trying to help her. Note my fabrrurous legs.

now here is an important topic for discussion. I am on hiatus and i'm never really the kind of person whose friends set them up with people because i think i am just a bit too particular or something. but anyways big O and minayo have this friend Mike and they think that i should date him. this is mike.
No, he's not the guy in the front. He's the goofy white guy in the back. The reason they think i should date him is because he is fun in a weird alternative way. what do you all think? i don't really find him all that attractive but he is a nice person. And jen said she ran into him at the library and he had fallen asleep on his highlighter and had highlighter all over his face and didin't know it. does this sound like my type??? there is a sort of napoleon dynamite quality to him. and he's not latino or a poet or a med student or an engineer so he has the potential to not tell LIES. i guess he does web design or something. i don't know. sounds like potential LIES to me.
oh speaking of computers, i reformatted mine and it keeps asking me to activate the finger print scanner. Trust me if i could have gotten the comp without it i would have but for some reason IBM insisted on this damn finger print scanner. So i ask the blogosphere, why would a normal person like me need a finger print scanner? i'm not sidney bristow. I do'nt have the mock list of spy names stored on my harddrive. what is it's purpose.

Fall is in full effect, falling leaves and all, but we've been having weird weather. bouts of hot and cold and rain and humid and all of it is making a mockery of this rat's nest atop my head. So i would like to thank whoever at garnier fructis finally decided to sell a line for curly hair. I mean their sleek and sheen line is decent but it also leaves build up which is not cute. but their new curly hair line is pretty decent. I've used lots of shampoos expensive and cheap and i gotta say Fructis is pretty good for the low low price of 2.99. coming from a family of beauticians i have have tried my fair share of saloon products in my life. Pureology and redken and frederik fekkai and bliss and shit but in the end i think i just have really good hair because it looks just as good when i use this stuff as when i use Fructis. I have always said that my favorite physical quality about myself is my hair, and i stick by that. Actually what i think it is is my new ionic blow dryer that my aunt got me which reinfuses moisture as it dries. ammaaaazing. And it has rhinestones on it. fancy!

so another week...blah.

halloween approaches

so halloween is coming up and me and my housemates are planning a HUGE party a la mexican independence day. So the question becomes what do i dress up as? people are expecting big things from me and i worry that i can't live up to it. So here is what i have in my head so far.

Harajuku teenage girl - a costume completely built and inspired by my herrrrooo kitty backpack. the only problem is people dont' seem to excited about this costume. hmm

Ziggy stardust - i have always wanted to do this but it would require lots of planning and my hair isn't short and red and stuff.

also i was considering doing like multiple costumes and having costumes changes throughout the night. i'm sure this is a much better idea in theory. but i was thinking if i did this they could all be of one theme liek for instance "britney throughout time" or something. i mean i'm not gonna be britney but you get the idea.

so what i'm saying is, you guys have to help me think of a costum eidea!! even though no one ever actually comments. but still HELP!

monday night shows

Sooooo after the drama that was last night I decided I would have to settle for watching shows online, which I guess when you think about it is not much worse than watchig on my 30 inch tv. But wahtevs!! Someday I will have an awesome tv. This will also be the day that I have an awesome life. This day is not today.

So first thoughts on shows

Heroes – was good but I think I’m getting too old (in tv years meaning I am a more “mature” tv watcher so I don’t get easily tricked by gimmicks) for these cliffhanger mystery shows. I mean obvi I’m gonna stick with it but my heart wasn’t there. Maybe I need to rewatch the first season

The bachelor - didn’t’ get to watch it, and am really bummed about this. I will figure out a way and definitely watch next week.

Dancing with the stars – again, did not get to watch, and again am super bummed. I will watch the recap on Wednesday.

the hills - it's the same thing every week but it's still good.

How I met your mother – kind of a lame season opener but I still love the characters so I’m sticking with it. And I always love when mandy moore guest appears on stuff. I don’t know why, I just do

Chuck – so I feel like chuck is one of those shows like alias where the plot is kind of secondary and what you really care about is the character development, and I love shows like this. Sometimes I don’t want the plot to make sense. Like seriously, rambaldi and all that crap. But I didn’t mind because I was drawn into the story of Sydney and Vaughn. So basically what I’m saying is the character of chuck is who you'd get if you combined sydney bristow and marshall and created a main character based on this. I also really love when movie or television characters go to Stanford. For some reason it just makes me really giddy inside that Stanford is like this strange pop culture symbol that you say “ok I want them ot have gone to a good college but not stuffy. Ok Stanford, done.” It makes me feel like I’m part of something. But I hate when Hollywood misrepresents Stanford like in the movie “orange county.” Gross misrepresentation.

so tomorrow i will discuss gossip girl and why i want to explore tights and mini knit dresses. I will also discuss my new patent leather mary jane heels.

A Mo Named Valentino...why i hate comcast

guys. seriously i just suffered a minor nervous breakdown of uncontrollable tears, and i will tell you why and hope that you will all understand and not judge me or think i am crazier than you know i am. so you know how you have those weeks where nothing goes right. where you are like "seriously is life ever going to get better?" these are my feelings as of late and i was so excited about the premiers tonight and i had put all my hope into this one 5 hours session of telelviosn watching. Tv is what calms me . i get lost in teh shows and i forget what sucks in my own life and i was so looking forward to that today.

7:50 - start warming up my dinner and getting excited. put on pijamas. find a comfortable spot on couch

7:56 - cable goes out. i try to remain calm adn fiddle with cables. switch to aux tivo channel and realize it's all the cable not just the cable to our tv. internet also goes out. i begin to get stressed

8:03 - finally get a hold of a comcast rep, realize that i'm missing 3 minutes of dancing wtih teh stars and chuck. start to feel lots of eeeemotions.

8:05 - tell the gay operator, valentino that i really need him to fix this for me because i serioulsy might cry and i cannot have this not work. he tells me "oh honey i will try."

8:35 - after much fiddling he breaks it to me that the cable is out and i will have to wait until wednesday to get a worker to come and fix it. i begin to tear up on the real. the ridiuclousness of htis moment (me being comforted by a queen named valentino because i'm missing teh bachelor) is not lost on me.

i quickly rush out of teh house so as not to let my housemates see me cry over tv because seriously no one will understand. do you all undersatnd? i drive to my friends house and it's liek the flood gates open and everything i have been feeling of late is let out and i just can't stop crying and i am saying to myself "why are you crying??" i get to her house and she is watchign dancing with teh stars but after 10 minutes i realize i am in such a bad mood that even if i were to stay and watch heroes my heart wouldn' be in it. To dvr and tivo owners, you shoudl be able to understand that the though of having to watch live tv at a time when you dont' want to watch it is nausea inducing. i concur that i am a drama queen but i also cannot stop crying. so i get in my car and drive home. i get home and my roommates are all around teh kitchen in silence and they say "sorry tina." i don't watn them to see me cry so i just tell them that i cant' talk to anyone right now and i go into my room, grab my comp, and head to teh coffee shop where i cry and type in front of complete strangers. Seriously what is wrong with me!!

so my point is that...i don't know what my point is. i'm really upset and frustrated. yes i can watch most of these shows online but this is not teh point. i just needed it to not suck today. as i told orges, i'm sure that on thursday when i am drunk i will retell this story about how i cried to a fag named valentino on the phone. and it will go in my repertoir of stories entitled "how my life is like a sitcom."

fall season!!

tonight is the official beginning of fall TV watching season and i am so excited!! i'm convelling!!! seriously for all of my life i have always gotten tingles with the beginning of fall season. Is this what it feels like for sports fans?

so here is my monday night schedule which i will watch both in live time and on tivo time.

Live time 8:00 pm - Chuck - i'm kind of excited about this show and i'm not really sure why but it seems shrouded in mystery.

How i met your mother - despite trying to convince a few of my friends to watch this show no one has tried yet which makes me really sad cuz i and many other tv bloggers agree that it is kind of awesome.

Heroes - no words, but i'm not watching it tonight. cathy and i are watching via satellite (gchat) tomorrow night. the fact that cathy has a dvr i think will alter the nature of our relationship and take us to a whole new level.

dancing with the stars - oh holy balls yes!!! dude jenny garth is gonna be on it! i just want to watch one season where the whole cast of 90210 competes against each other. that is all i want in life. i am also really excited about scary spice because HOLA!! how awesome is that.

the bachelor - after many years of watching alone with no one to share my pain with i gave it up last year. Lo and behold it's the year that everyone starts watching. so fuck that! i'm picking it up again this year for more awesomeness and hatred of my gender.

so i think that is all for tonight. i will write more (hopefully daily?) to discuss my thoughts....and my what ever else i want to watch on any particular given day. i'm so excited i've been having mini anxiety attacks and heart burn. i'm gonna take a zantac and put on my sweats. smell ya later homies!!

quick updates....more to come later

so i'm hella tired since i was already tired to begin with and hugo decided it woudl be a good idea to make green curry and start a sci fi channel mini series called "the lost room." 6 hours later we all agreed that this was perhaps not the best of ideas. But anyways here are some notes i wrote to myself during cultural psych class. i will expand on them at a later date, hopefully friday or something.


- my assumption that the catholic church was where i would find all the eligible latino grad student men was severely incorrect. Realization, latin men are liars, much like poets only more intentional. one word, LIES!!

- if latin men are liars, poets are liars, med students are crazy, psychologists are crazy, and engineers are crazy then really who can i date? blue collar men perhaps?

-the party was awesome. will try to find pics somewhere.

- unvieling of my birthday party theme for next year. BEST PROM EVER!! i might even rent out a hall! will expand on this vision later.

- beaner's coffee, a real coffee chain in ann arbor (i know! only in the midwest) is changing their names in their attempt to expand beyond the midwestern states. idiots.

- why do i feel stigmatized by my white professor? why do i kind of have inappropriate throughts for my japanese professor? that is the quesssssstion.

-taking non education related psych courses makes me realize that i'm not actually dumb, i just don't know much about educational psych. But in my social and cultural classes my questions always get chosen as the "thought provoking questions of teh week." this makes me feel a little less inept than i usually fee.

- today hugo said to wendy, fern, and I "if someoen gave you 2 million dollars (this all related to the show we were watching) would you quit grad school." Before he even finished teh sentence we all said "yes!!" i think this is very telling and kind of sad. and then he said "well waht woudl you do if you didin't have to worry about money" and i actually said "be a preschool teacher." this was rather an odd realization for me. I will have to think about this more.

things that i love that i never realized i loved:
1. honey! i love good honey! who knew! i bought some honey from this very shady man who had jacked nails at the farmer's market a month ago and i've been eating it with Fage and it's pretty good

2. I also really love heirloom tomatoes. Jen and I have been feeling very bored with ann arbor, probably because she's been here for like 10 years or something. so we have all these plans for things we want to do. one of our projects is we're gonna start doing crafts, screen printing, painting and such. another thing is that we are gonna go to the farmer's market on saturday mornings and buy things that we have never cooked with or eaten. so last week we did heirloom tomatoes and we bought some fresh mozarella and fresh basil and i am here to say, there is a thing called an hierloom tomatoe and it's awesome. somethign to do wiht natural cross pollination or something

3. jenny Lewis. her music is really good. She is also the daughter from troop beverly hills which just makes me think she is even more awesome.

well i thought i had more things to list but i cant' think of them right now. so anyways i will tell you about friday and how i'm throwing a mexican independence day party. i figured i'd light the whole house with catholic candles and such and maybe make some food, but here is the best part. instead of just dressing normal i am opting for a costume. shock of all shockers. but for serious it's gonna be awesome. I am going for a modern variation on emiliano zapata
ok so here is the plan, from head to toe. my brown frye boots, black legging pants, white long sleeve shirt or white wife beater. not sure yet. hipster vest, buttoned or unbuttoned again, not sure. brown thick belt around waste, and then a bullet belt around my shoulder. a red bandana tied around my neck and a giant sombrero which shall be called the "fiesta sombrero" and which will be passed around all night. sreiously i saw it at the store and was unsure if i shoudl buy it because it si so fucking huge. but fuck it, i need to just do it. And then a mustache that the costume store listed as "chinese." costume stores in the midwest crack me up. for instance they sell a hitler mustache among the chinese mustaches. also they have a "mexican" costume which is a sarape, hat, and a cactus to lean on. you think i'm joking, i am not.

so all in all it shoudl be an awesome party. i'll make sure to have someone take pics. i'm hoping for some new facebook pics to put up.

speaking of mexicans, i decided a while ago to start going to spanish mass as a way of getting in touch with the latino community that i want to do research on someday. well as it were i am not only becoming a bilingual catechist but somehow i got offered the position of "hispanic ministry-coordinator." i know!! so this will be my second part time job on top of my studies. this is how i roll. when i dont' have every minute of my day booked i tend to waste it doing stupid shit. but if i fill it up somehow it helps me schedule better.

wow this entry is really boring. i'm tempted to erase it. but then it won't make sense later when i put up pics of me as a mexican revolutionary. sorry guys

oh britney, that was just...sad. she truly did look like the saddest girl to ever hold a martini

so what's been going on lately? Well classes started today. oh AND I'M GOING TO THAILAND!! but more on that later. I decided to take some social and cultural psych classes this semester since thye are offered and count and i'm real happy cuz i'ts like my undergrad days when i didn't detest my classes. Also my german professor hates me...i think. he thinks i'm real critical and condescending. he doesn't realize though that i just hate his class. really all this class stuff is totally uninteresting

so my friends finally moved in. good times all around. I mean i've been working or sleeping most of it but i can feel the good times coming. We might have a mexican independence day party next week. "que viva!" But i forgot what i't slike living with people. LIke you have to deal with couple PDA, on the real, or how everyone in the world cooks with garlic and stinks up the house making me want to vomit. But these are things that come with the territory. Seriously what is it about garlic. I personally can't stand the taste or smell but i think it's cause my dad used to hate it and so he passed on this phobia to me that if i ever ate it no man would want me. I feel kind of bad for the people who date me cuz my one big rule is always "no garlic." thye are all probably bathing in garlic now in celebration. So anyways my room smells liek garlic and the other day my hands smelled liek ti for no reason. nasty.

so yeah...we're going to thailand!!!!!!!!! so bomb! we had been talking about it for a while but i never thought we would actually do it but Ivan agreed and we are tagging along with another group of friends, leaving on christmas day and spending new years there. to be honest i know nothing about thailand. But i know this is my first trip to asia and so that will knock out a continent. 3 down...4 more to go. can you imagine me and ivan frolicking under the stars at a moon party!! my only fear is that i will meet some shady hot australians, have a one night stand, they will slip something in my bag and i will end up like claire danes in brokedown palace, trapped in some thai jail.


thailand!!!!!!!!!!!!!